October 4: A Date for a Death

The October Diary is a work of fiction originally released serially during October 2015. The complete list of posts can be found here.

October 4th

My debt has come due. The deal has run it’s course. It had been so long that I nearly blocked it out. It seemed like a dream. Like another nightmare. But this is real. I couldn’t hide from the truth.

The Man with the Shadow Voice followed me home today. I didn’t know he was there on the porch with me. He is as quiet as the night. When he said “hello” I dropped my keys.

I invited him in. I didn’t know what else to do. We sat in my living room as though this was a normal social call.

At first we sat in silence. I wondered if I should offer him something to drink. I wondered if he drinks anything.

I didn’t offer. I desperately wanted water. My throat was dry and tight. Just as I had the courage to get up he finally spoke.

I felt the cold air of his words as he told me that I am going to die on October 31st. This October 31st. I am going to die on Halloween. Less than a month away. I felt the dark close in around me.

I wasn’t scared. Not really. I’ve been so scared. This was almost a relief. No more waiting. No more denial. No more avoidance. No more guilt.

I am going to die. I accept that. I am going to die like I should have years ago.

What happens next? Read the next part of the story here.

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